SADNESS

So how many many people have the privilege to have sadness in their life..?More precisely to think about their sadness...that they are sad...that they have keep to them going through various intellectual measures devised by SAINTS & MOTIVATIONAL GURUS.Ha! motivational books costs around 300..i think i know although i never buy them....or may i say 2 pegs of whisky on the rocks will do it..but why not take pegs in lounge with extreme relaxing environment...so what! it will cost only 400 bucks per peg..ok leave all this bull shit..go to some peaceful place like BAHAMAS or IRELAND..enjoy some black IRISH coffee there..it will soothe you..cost only around 100 thousand including trip.
I dont know about the mechanic working in a garage will be doing in SADNESS...or i wonder even he gets time to be sad after working 12-13 hours a day earning 3000 bucks in a month.Dont know about a lady in slums whose husband died out of hooch survived by 3 more children..she has to go through anything without any motivation.Yes she can gaze at sea hours taking her youngest tied to her waist by rag..but sea makes you think about yourself only.So why risk sea?Oops she has to take care of her 3 also..leave her apart for survival.
No its not the SURVIVAL OF FITTEST or someting like that.Its just how handsome earning people can only appreciate the felony of sadness...how expensive is sadness nowadaz without any compromise...

DELHI

(Pending from Novemeber 2009) Last week I have been transferred to land of DILWALOS.....new work, new place...coping with the new atmosphere...new people..same boring apprehensions to sum up my first day.By the way I have been to delhi many times but in leisure.In job place I felt altogether different delhi. Because in each commuting I was not enjoying something new but rather making plane how to avoid this in future by taking home there or here....need to mention again it was different.
Delhi has its own spectrum of colours beyond rainbow.People are good..girls are beautiful..roads are fantastic...but who the hell has time..?Ya, to maintain such delhi people have to be busy.Mcds are like panwallas-in every corner...CCDs like General store-in every locality & above all new buses of DTC.
Oh I forget to told you my job is to look after parts of TATA DTC buses moving in whole delhi.But i am strong enough not to feel guilty if some bus if off-road due to unavailability of parts.....Corporate life ka chakkar babu bhaya...corporate life ka chakkar..
Still this is not a blog for my some daily reference for my diary. But something I should not share with everyone... so writing here.Please dont go on the irony of the last sentence.Because now I am a delhites & i enjoy straightforward things....so no JAZZ..no BLUES...no OPERA...only old hindi songs which i can understand (please don watch WAKE UP SID..otherwise you will know my inspiration)

PAIN

I always wondered about the dimensions of Human Pain. What is this pain? Till my childhood (exact time not known) pain was only physical & pleasure only mental. Now I reached that stage where for me pain is only mental & pleasure is just too physical.
I have pain of not knowing, not knowing what is going on, not knowing why it is happening, not knowing what am I suppose to do.O God!I really don’t know what should I do to lessen my pain of not knowing. As Freud has said biggest power is the Power of living in present but we have evolved to believe that desires & emotions have real power. This power of desires & feelings are propelling me into darkness of unknown. Because I am bound to have desires but at the same time my visions are so restricted that I even don’t know when I stop being sad on fulfilling my desires.So in all the net result is that whether my desires are fulfilled or not, I am in pain of my own instinct of sadness. The advances of 20th century & beyond like rationalism, science & progress should have made things more clearer. But all they do is to intensify our agony at our ignorance & irrelevance. We are lost in world like our own Earth is lost in our own invention of Galaxy & Floyd’s have already depicted it in their video.
I am a normal young man caught up in the storm of my own inner passions, have to pay attention to myself, look & feel for life ahead.Have a belief that loving is the greatest power.But rules are guiding me to nowhere. Its like making it illegal to play Beethoven’s Symphony while driving because it may relax the senses of your mind like an Alcohol.
In the end I want to share one of the most pessimistic thoughts of Sophocles:
“If I could edit my past,I would have change my birth.The Greatest luck is not to have been born-but as the joke goes on,no one succeed in it”.

Please note- In the above blog I is not Me.It is just used to emphasize the pain & suffering of an individual.

DEVIL'S ADVOCATE

FOSTER effect is giving Indian students a tough time in land of regular WORLD CUP winners.Be it petrol bomb made with a help of glass bottle or base ball bat, the effect has its loud echo on an Indian soil.Racism is never partial & present uniformly in all continents of world (I am eagerly waiting for some news from ANTARCTICA).Award for this uniformity must go to our highly intellectual people who are always present in every society.
They are born with genius of HITLER.According to them some creatures are superior than others since birth, as they have taken a meeting with GODS before sending them.But to identify such creatures was difficult.Bingo......they themselves given an idea to prove themselves among themselves that they are superior but in what aspects that still is a mystery among those who are not superior.They are really foolish not to understand such deep rooted concepts of geniuses.
Initially idea was restricted to CASTE.But with time they become more intelligent & devised other important parameters like Country, Dress, Skin complexion,Money & many.Still many to come because there is no scarcity of genius people who will add more parameters in time to come.
To prove their superiority point self admiration is initial stage but in disguise form.Then comes the rigid action of forcing them to lower creatures. That rigid action may sometimes leads to violence but whats wrong...?They have direct contacts with GOD.They know the absolute purpose of human beings(hell with EXISTENTIALISM).Their followers are important too.After the demise of some great identities, followers only spread their genius ideas.At many diasporas they are prayed as GOD. See my point is proved.They are in direct contact with GOD.Followers even add their genius touch to the original idea to increase the effect.Some times it proved to be harmful to many, but it helped a lot in increasing some few to many.
In modern world these genius are now forming small faction to spread their intelligence.They have locational influence as well as crossboundary effects.They are strictly against bad practices like Women Education, Women empowerment, Development activities, Democracy etc.Above all, according to them they are just following the path shown by GOD.And no one can question GOD.Right.......?
AMEN

GRAVITY

What is stress, or strain, or mental tension? Desire? Materialism? Idealism? or sex craving?
It is all about direction in which mind is going. Our mind is like pendulum swinging with past memories on one side & future expectations one other side. It seldom stops in centre, our present because of the lack of gravity in our life.
Gravity is not using our intellectual brain like listening carefully to others words, making conclusions, remembering details.
It is like listening song, not understanding the words but feeling the emotions in them, not remembering the whole song after listening it 10 times, but just two lines, enough to express emotions, relating it with yourself but not with future or past.
Gravity is straightening the curve of question mark to exclamation mark. Gravity is capabilities, not what have been done or what will be done. It is present of Present.
Gravity is full of surprises but still predictable, full of known secrets, full of mystery unfold in starting, full of beastly desires in human heart. It is television with one channel & remote with hundreds & thousands of channels button. It is becoming juvenile from old age, becoming children from adolescence. It is not seven notes but their vibrations. It is communication in silence, pact of hearts to understand souls, not pact of brains to understand body. It is crying in no language, smiling in no language, loving in no language. It is taste of water for thirsty, it is light for blind, words for dumb .It is truth with tit bits of pleasant lie, it is hidden fish of glory in sea of failures. It is snoring while not sleeping. It is money with no value, it is bartering with fixed item.
It is land…
It is continents….
It is countries….
It is states…
It is cities…
It is temple…. church…. mosque…in them…
It is shame of glory………..
It is you and me…
It is all and everybody….
Last not the least gravity is telling yourself I belong to you.

ALCOHOL

It was a cold day with a breezes enjoying their resticted ways of so called buildings & man-made structures.At least oceans dont enjoy because of the maximum percent of nature in them on this billion old year EARTH.But still perfect scientific understanding between land & Sea gives us this cold breezes to enjoy.My mind was making numerous options as if I am under the effect of HOTEL CALIFORNIA.....but this feeling was not so easy to explain.It results from a intense days of boredom & doing nothing productive (as called by we humans) work in this world.
Mountains,Oceans,Earth...all took millions of years to form...and we decide ourself in a short span of our life.But we have no other option.Periodical judgement by man from so many years produced so many inventions & discoveries.At any moment we are able to enjoy outcome of many theories & findings of many human life spans.
For example take ALCOHOL.
The word alcohol appears in English in the 16th century, loaned via French from medical Latin, ultimately from the Arabic al-kuol, meaning "collyrium", the name of very finely powdered antimony sulfide used as an antiseptic and eyeliner. Originally the powder is prepared by sublimation of the natural mineral stibnite in a closed vessel.
Now last 5 lines (COURTESY:WIKIPEDIA) are just a overview of Word ALCOHOL & its origin but it involved so many experience.I havent still mentioned the most important experience.Just imagine the firsr person ever who feel the effect of alcohol in its nervous system.We cant even imagine whether it was hell or heaven for him....how he might have share his feelings to other persons.....but chain started that time given so many forms of ALCOHOL today.SINGLE MALTED....DOUBLE DISTILLED....SPRING HARVESTED...VODKA...RUM....WHISKY...GIN...& so many.
For students it may be one of the chapter in Chemistry undergoes chemical reactions like DEPROTONATION...DEHYDRATION....ESTERIFICATION...OXIDATION...all to mug up & get good marks & feel happy...
But for grown up people it is a mandatory weapon to relax...to feel happy(altogether different feeling from students)....to grieve....to celebrate with friends...to enjoy isolation...in short all man-made feelings.
So it has its own application for various categories of we humans which is enjoyable at any moment of our life.
CHEERS........I said to my friend who was listening all my above bullshit thinking I was under the same effect as that first person.

EXISTENTIALISM

What is the supreme importance of anyone's life?Its existence or reason of existence.I have to agree with the former one because reasons are the creation of human being & no one need a reason to exist.My existence of life is only what matters to me.But problems are here alsoIt is inherited in our nature that we make chains for everything.We associate our existence with existences in our surrounding.
We have to exist for existence of our offspring and they for their own and so on....This chain sems to be the reason of our existence, but there is definitely a starting point for it.That starting point defines our reason to exist.That is one absolute reason without any choice.All other reasons are secondary for our creation.
This is the core essence of EXISTENTIALISM.