I always wondered about the dimensions of Human Pain. What is this pain? Till my childhood (exact time not known) pain was only physical & pleasure only mental. Now I reached that stage where for me pain is only mental & pleasure is just too physical.
I have pain of not knowing, not knowing what is going on, not knowing why it is happening, not knowing what am I suppose to do.O God!I really don’t know what should I do to lessen my pain of not knowing. As Freud has said biggest power is the Power of living in present but we have evolved to believe that desires & emotions have real power. This power of desires & feelings are propelling me into darkness of unknown. Because I am bound to have desires but at the same time my visions are so restricted that I even don’t know when I stop being sad on fulfilling my desires.So in all the net result is that whether my desires are fulfilled or not, I am in pain of my own instinct of sadness. The advances of 20th century & beyond like rationalism, science & progress should have made things more clearer. But all they do is to intensify our agony at our ignorance & irrelevance. We are lost in world like our own Earth is lost in our own invention of Galaxy & Floyd’s have already depicted it in their video.
I am a normal young man caught up in the storm of my own inner passions, have to pay attention to myself, look & feel for life ahead.Have a belief that loving is the greatest power.But rules are guiding me to nowhere. Its like making it illegal to play Beethoven’s Symphony while driving because it may relax the senses of your mind like an Alcohol.
In the end I want to share one of the most pessimistic thoughts of Sophocles:
“If I could edit my past,I would have change my birth.The Greatest luck is not to have been born-but as the joke goes on,no one succeed in it”.
Please note- In the above blog I is not Me.It is just used to emphasize the pain & suffering of an individual.
